Stop scanning horizontally for validation. Look up. Jesus Christ is looking at you while you're obsessing over people who aren't even paying attention.
You're terrified of thoughts no one is thinking. Satan's job is paranoia about things that will never happen. Jesus Christ offers truth over surveillance.
You think you're center stage, but most people aren't even in the theater. Satan sells you paranoia about an audience that doesn't exist. Look up instead.
You can achieve everything God allowed you to yearn for, as long as your will aligns with His. Jesus Christ plants the desire, then clears the path to it.